Post by avatarangel on Feb 2, 2006 20:14:00 GMT -5
Ok i am writing a book...not sure what all i am going to put in it and so far I just have two paragraphs and wanted to know what everything thinks about it...
Chapter One
For two years of my life, I traveled all over the world. Meeting new people, visiting exotic places, and experiencing different cultures and customs. Those two years were the most unique years of my life and I will never forget them. Now I must make something clear, no matter how unforgettable those travels were, not all the memories were good. I made a lot of mistakes but the biggest mistake was the one that started my adventures. The mistake I am referring to is when I ran away from my home, family and friends. I was 14 years old and thought that I was invincible. Of course, I know better now, but I was young and as much as I hated to admit it, I was completely sheltered. I didn’t know much about anything in the world, but like most young teenagers I thought I knew everything. In my eyes, adults just made anything difficult when everything was so simple. At that age, I just never realized how the world worked. I just climbed out of my bedroom window and left. I thought it was going to be the most amazing time of my life. I wish I knew then what I know now, things don’t always go how we want or plan them to.
From the first night, it was miserable being on the road but I couldn’t admit that I was wrong. I had too much pride. I was cold and hungry and I didn’t have much money so for the first few nights I slept in alleyways. I would sleep during the day and travel at night to avoid being seen. After the first couple of days, my hunger got the best of me and I started going through garbage cans and dumpsters, in one I found an old thin red blanket that I used to cover up with when I slept. It smelled of vomit and bodily wastes and had a big green stain on it but I had no way of cleaning it so I suffered with it. I would lay there on the cold ground and would long for my nice warm bed but I just couldn’t go back home. I kept telling myself that tomorrow would be better, I just had to wait until tomorrow and everything would be better. I was on a roller coaster ride and at that point there was no turning back for me. This is my story, I hope my words will make an impact on you so that you will never have to make the same mistakes I did.
I think I lived a couple of weeks digging in the dumpsters for scrapes of food and traveling at night before I reached a town where no one would recognize me and I would be free to walk in the daylight again. My first order of business was to find a way of making some pocket money to buy some actual food. I went around the neighborhood, knocking on doors and asking if anyone needed any odd jobs done for just a couple of bucks or maybe a hot meal. I was lucky to find that people in these parts were willing to give anyone a chance. I cleaned 3 houses, raked 4 yards, and walked 2 dogs. In total I made about $35.00, enough for a couple of meals at a local diner. I was sitting at a table when he walked up and introduced himself as Joseph. He was tall and handsome. He had pitch black hair, dreamy blue eyes, and a smile that would make your heart melt. He asked to sit down and I gave permission. We spent three hours talking about nothing in particular, he just seemed so interested in what I had to say, I knew I could easily fall in love with a man like this. When the waitress came over to tell us that the diner was closing, Joseph asked me where I was staying. I told him that I didn’t really have a place yet and was thrilled when he offered to let me stay at his place for a few days. I would have plenty to eat and could take my first hot bath in weeks instead of jumping in a cold lake.
When we got to his house, he showed me around. There was a living room, kitchen, bathroom, his bedroom and a guest room. Joseph showed me where he kept the towels and soaps and asked if I had any extra clothes to change into. I told him I didn’t but I didn’t want to tell him why quite yet, He said he understood and that if I put my outfit outside the bathroom door, he would wash it for me while I was bathing. When I got out of the bedroom, he said that he was going to be and that he would see me in the morning so I went and laid down in the guest room. Sleeping in a bed felt so nice after sleeping on nothing but a cold hard ground, that I fell asleep instantly. It was first night that I stayed warm all night and didn’t worry about something happening to be. The next day when I woke up I went into the living room and saw to my astonishment there were some new clothes laying on the couch. There was a couple of night clothes, some shirts and pants, and some dresses. As I was looking through the clothes, Joseph came out of his bedroom and asked me if I like the clothes, that they were mine if I wanted them. I went and changed my clothes immediately and felt like a brand new person. Over the next few days I started to feel so much at home, I slept late, ate good food, had no worries and was staying with a really nice guy. On some nights we would go to the diner, others we would take turns cooking and spend the evening talking, joking and laughing.
After dinner one night, Joseph took me aside and confided that we had some financial difficulties and asked me if maybe I could go find a part time job. I told him that I would try but I didn’t know if I could because I was only 14. He smiled and I went out the next day looking for some kind of work. I started cleaning houses again and even baby-sitting occasionally. I didn’t make much money but I was making something. Joseph said he would try to pull some strings and find something for me to do.
One night, I returned home after cleaning a neighbor house to discover we had company. Joseph was sitting on the couch with a man in a business suit. He was introduced as Kevin, he was a very important businessman. Joseph told me that Kevin traveled to all kinds of different places and liked to stop in when he was in town but he was busy at the moment and wanted to know if I could possible entertain him for a little while. I said ok and Joseph went into his room and closed the door. As soon as Joseph was gone, Kevin reached over and put his hand on my shoulder. I felt really uncomfortable so I moved further away from him and asked him how he liked his line of work. He said that it was ok but a very lonely business and moved closer to me. I asked to be excused and went and knocked on Joseph’s door. I went in and told Joseph that I didn’t feel comfortable being alone with Kevin, that he was making comments that made me uneasy. Joseph told me that I was to entertain Kevin, and that meant to do whatever Kevin wanted me to do. At first I was confused, but when I realized what Joseph was talking about I told him no. Joseph grabbed my arm extremely tight and told me that if I knew what was good for me that I would do as I was told. That it was time for me to pull my own weight around the house and Kevin was willing to pay good money for some entertainment. He then told me to be a good girl and get back out there.
When I turned around to leave, Joseph called me back. He said that we just need the money really bad and that nothing bad would happen to me. He then ripped my clothing off and pushed me back out into the living room. When I looked back at the couch I noticed that Kevin too had undress. I sat back down on the couch, trying to stay as far away from Kevin as I could but Kevin continued to move towards me until he had me cornered. I had no choice but to do what Kevin wanted me to do, so I laid down on the couch and closed my eyes. I held back the tears of humiliation and bit my lip to keep from yelling in pain. After he was through I ran into the bathroom, I felt so sick to my stomach over what had just happened and so ashamed of myself. I couldn’t believe that Joseph would make me do something like this. I told myself that we were just in desperate need of money and that he would not make me do this again, that he cared too much for me.
After I threw up a couple of times and then brushed my teeth I went back into the living room. Kevin was gone but Joseph was sitting on the couch, waiting for me. I sat down and he looked at me. He told me that Kevin really enjoyed himself and wanted to see me again before he left tomorrow night. Same services that I provided tonight but he was willing to pay twice as much as he paid tonight. When I started to protest, Joseph cut me off and told me that I had to. If I didn’t I would be on the streets once again and no one in the town was going to take in a little lover girl like me, then he went into his bedroom and shut the door. I ran to my room and cried myself to sleep.
I was woken up the next day by Joseph telling me that Kevin was here for his appointment. I reluctantly went out into the living room and discovered that Kevin was not the only one there today. He introduced me to Hank, his business partner and said that he told Hank about me and he had wanted to meet me. It hurt twice as much as it did last night especially since there was two this time and I cried out in pain at one point and tears filled my eyes but that seemed to excite them more. They seemed to get some sort of sick pleasure from hurting me. When they were done, they got dressed and went onto the porch with Joseph. After a couple of minutes Joseph came back and told me that they really liked me today. When they were in town next they would be back to see me. I told him that I never wanted to do that again. That it hurt me, but Joseph pulled out a knife and told me that if I didn’t want to be cooperative that no one would miss me.
Things continued that way for a while. I would wake up to find different men there for me to “entertain”. Every time I tried to tell Joseph that I didn’t want to do this. That I felt scared and hurt but he wouldn’t listen to me. After three months of that I started to feel sick every morning and Joseph took me to the doctor’s. I was two months pregnant. Joseph was so excited that he stopped having his “friends” over and started treating me like he did before everything had happened. He said that he couldn’t wait for the baby to be born and was excited that I was pregnant and that we would tell people that it was his baby. We started making plans for when the baby would be born and talking about names and everything like that. Joseph told me one night that he wanted me to have a girl, not a boy. I asked him why he preferred to have a girl and he told me that it was because when I got too old for the “business” my daughter could take over. I asked him what if I had a boy, Joseph replied that if I had a boy people would believe whatever he told them. I faked a smile and told him goodnight and went off to bed. The next day I went grocery shopping and went into the medicine isle. I spotted them right away, the sleeping pills for when someone can’t sleep. I picked up a box and went to the check outs. I paid for the pills separately and hid them in my pocket. When I got home I put the groceries away and stashed the pills in my top dresser drawer for later. That night I mixed two pills in with his drink and took it to him. Instead of sitting with him I told him that I extremely tired and went to my room. I started packing some of my clothes and then snuck into the living room. I pressed my ear against the door and heard him snoring. I then went and grabbed my bag from the bedroom and before leaving grabbed a few things for me to eat on my way. I quietly snuck out the front door and I was on the run again.
I had to hide during the day again and travel at night, though I must admit that I didn’t get much sleep and couldn’t travel very far being 5 months pregnant now. I knew that I had to get somewhere safe, not for me but for my baby’s safety.
let me know, good or bad...
Chapter One
For two years of my life, I traveled all over the world. Meeting new people, visiting exotic places, and experiencing different cultures and customs. Those two years were the most unique years of my life and I will never forget them. Now I must make something clear, no matter how unforgettable those travels were, not all the memories were good. I made a lot of mistakes but the biggest mistake was the one that started my adventures. The mistake I am referring to is when I ran away from my home, family and friends. I was 14 years old and thought that I was invincible. Of course, I know better now, but I was young and as much as I hated to admit it, I was completely sheltered. I didn’t know much about anything in the world, but like most young teenagers I thought I knew everything. In my eyes, adults just made anything difficult when everything was so simple. At that age, I just never realized how the world worked. I just climbed out of my bedroom window and left. I thought it was going to be the most amazing time of my life. I wish I knew then what I know now, things don’t always go how we want or plan them to.
From the first night, it was miserable being on the road but I couldn’t admit that I was wrong. I had too much pride. I was cold and hungry and I didn’t have much money so for the first few nights I slept in alleyways. I would sleep during the day and travel at night to avoid being seen. After the first couple of days, my hunger got the best of me and I started going through garbage cans and dumpsters, in one I found an old thin red blanket that I used to cover up with when I slept. It smelled of vomit and bodily wastes and had a big green stain on it but I had no way of cleaning it so I suffered with it. I would lay there on the cold ground and would long for my nice warm bed but I just couldn’t go back home. I kept telling myself that tomorrow would be better, I just had to wait until tomorrow and everything would be better. I was on a roller coaster ride and at that point there was no turning back for me. This is my story, I hope my words will make an impact on you so that you will never have to make the same mistakes I did.
I think I lived a couple of weeks digging in the dumpsters for scrapes of food and traveling at night before I reached a town where no one would recognize me and I would be free to walk in the daylight again. My first order of business was to find a way of making some pocket money to buy some actual food. I went around the neighborhood, knocking on doors and asking if anyone needed any odd jobs done for just a couple of bucks or maybe a hot meal. I was lucky to find that people in these parts were willing to give anyone a chance. I cleaned 3 houses, raked 4 yards, and walked 2 dogs. In total I made about $35.00, enough for a couple of meals at a local diner. I was sitting at a table when he walked up and introduced himself as Joseph. He was tall and handsome. He had pitch black hair, dreamy blue eyes, and a smile that would make your heart melt. He asked to sit down and I gave permission. We spent three hours talking about nothing in particular, he just seemed so interested in what I had to say, I knew I could easily fall in love with a man like this. When the waitress came over to tell us that the diner was closing, Joseph asked me where I was staying. I told him that I didn’t really have a place yet and was thrilled when he offered to let me stay at his place for a few days. I would have plenty to eat and could take my first hot bath in weeks instead of jumping in a cold lake.
When we got to his house, he showed me around. There was a living room, kitchen, bathroom, his bedroom and a guest room. Joseph showed me where he kept the towels and soaps and asked if I had any extra clothes to change into. I told him I didn’t but I didn’t want to tell him why quite yet, He said he understood and that if I put my outfit outside the bathroom door, he would wash it for me while I was bathing. When I got out of the bedroom, he said that he was going to be and that he would see me in the morning so I went and laid down in the guest room. Sleeping in a bed felt so nice after sleeping on nothing but a cold hard ground, that I fell asleep instantly. It was first night that I stayed warm all night and didn’t worry about something happening to be. The next day when I woke up I went into the living room and saw to my astonishment there were some new clothes laying on the couch. There was a couple of night clothes, some shirts and pants, and some dresses. As I was looking through the clothes, Joseph came out of his bedroom and asked me if I like the clothes, that they were mine if I wanted them. I went and changed my clothes immediately and felt like a brand new person. Over the next few days I started to feel so much at home, I slept late, ate good food, had no worries and was staying with a really nice guy. On some nights we would go to the diner, others we would take turns cooking and spend the evening talking, joking and laughing.
After dinner one night, Joseph took me aside and confided that we had some financial difficulties and asked me if maybe I could go find a part time job. I told him that I would try but I didn’t know if I could because I was only 14. He smiled and I went out the next day looking for some kind of work. I started cleaning houses again and even baby-sitting occasionally. I didn’t make much money but I was making something. Joseph said he would try to pull some strings and find something for me to do.
One night, I returned home after cleaning a neighbor house to discover we had company. Joseph was sitting on the couch with a man in a business suit. He was introduced as Kevin, he was a very important businessman. Joseph told me that Kevin traveled to all kinds of different places and liked to stop in when he was in town but he was busy at the moment and wanted to know if I could possible entertain him for a little while. I said ok and Joseph went into his room and closed the door. As soon as Joseph was gone, Kevin reached over and put his hand on my shoulder. I felt really uncomfortable so I moved further away from him and asked him how he liked his line of work. He said that it was ok but a very lonely business and moved closer to me. I asked to be excused and went and knocked on Joseph’s door. I went in and told Joseph that I didn’t feel comfortable being alone with Kevin, that he was making comments that made me uneasy. Joseph told me that I was to entertain Kevin, and that meant to do whatever Kevin wanted me to do. At first I was confused, but when I realized what Joseph was talking about I told him no. Joseph grabbed my arm extremely tight and told me that if I knew what was good for me that I would do as I was told. That it was time for me to pull my own weight around the house and Kevin was willing to pay good money for some entertainment. He then told me to be a good girl and get back out there.
When I turned around to leave, Joseph called me back. He said that we just need the money really bad and that nothing bad would happen to me. He then ripped my clothing off and pushed me back out into the living room. When I looked back at the couch I noticed that Kevin too had undress. I sat back down on the couch, trying to stay as far away from Kevin as I could but Kevin continued to move towards me until he had me cornered. I had no choice but to do what Kevin wanted me to do, so I laid down on the couch and closed my eyes. I held back the tears of humiliation and bit my lip to keep from yelling in pain. After he was through I ran into the bathroom, I felt so sick to my stomach over what had just happened and so ashamed of myself. I couldn’t believe that Joseph would make me do something like this. I told myself that we were just in desperate need of money and that he would not make me do this again, that he cared too much for me.
After I threw up a couple of times and then brushed my teeth I went back into the living room. Kevin was gone but Joseph was sitting on the couch, waiting for me. I sat down and he looked at me. He told me that Kevin really enjoyed himself and wanted to see me again before he left tomorrow night. Same services that I provided tonight but he was willing to pay twice as much as he paid tonight. When I started to protest, Joseph cut me off and told me that I had to. If I didn’t I would be on the streets once again and no one in the town was going to take in a little lover girl like me, then he went into his bedroom and shut the door. I ran to my room and cried myself to sleep.
I was woken up the next day by Joseph telling me that Kevin was here for his appointment. I reluctantly went out into the living room and discovered that Kevin was not the only one there today. He introduced me to Hank, his business partner and said that he told Hank about me and he had wanted to meet me. It hurt twice as much as it did last night especially since there was two this time and I cried out in pain at one point and tears filled my eyes but that seemed to excite them more. They seemed to get some sort of sick pleasure from hurting me. When they were done, they got dressed and went onto the porch with Joseph. After a couple of minutes Joseph came back and told me that they really liked me today. When they were in town next they would be back to see me. I told him that I never wanted to do that again. That it hurt me, but Joseph pulled out a knife and told me that if I didn’t want to be cooperative that no one would miss me.
Things continued that way for a while. I would wake up to find different men there for me to “entertain”. Every time I tried to tell Joseph that I didn’t want to do this. That I felt scared and hurt but he wouldn’t listen to me. After three months of that I started to feel sick every morning and Joseph took me to the doctor’s. I was two months pregnant. Joseph was so excited that he stopped having his “friends” over and started treating me like he did before everything had happened. He said that he couldn’t wait for the baby to be born and was excited that I was pregnant and that we would tell people that it was his baby. We started making plans for when the baby would be born and talking about names and everything like that. Joseph told me one night that he wanted me to have a girl, not a boy. I asked him why he preferred to have a girl and he told me that it was because when I got too old for the “business” my daughter could take over. I asked him what if I had a boy, Joseph replied that if I had a boy people would believe whatever he told them. I faked a smile and told him goodnight and went off to bed. The next day I went grocery shopping and went into the medicine isle. I spotted them right away, the sleeping pills for when someone can’t sleep. I picked up a box and went to the check outs. I paid for the pills separately and hid them in my pocket. When I got home I put the groceries away and stashed the pills in my top dresser drawer for later. That night I mixed two pills in with his drink and took it to him. Instead of sitting with him I told him that I extremely tired and went to my room. I started packing some of my clothes and then snuck into the living room. I pressed my ear against the door and heard him snoring. I then went and grabbed my bag from the bedroom and before leaving grabbed a few things for me to eat on my way. I quietly snuck out the front door and I was on the run again.
I had to hide during the day again and travel at night, though I must admit that I didn’t get much sleep and couldn’t travel very far being 5 months pregnant now. I knew that I had to get somewhere safe, not for me but for my baby’s safety.
let me know, good or bad...